"So you really want me to do this, huh God?",

This was something I said to Him while I was actually on the plane to Mexico

It seems stupid now, and me and my loved ones have definitely laughed at this when I've told them about it...but that's how surreal it felt to be hosting my first retreat

A retreat where I would be teaching business women a quick and systemised process to pitch the media so that they can get onto more top platforms, be seen as industry experts, and start raking in larger paydays.

Thinking about it now, I know that this was because of a phenomenon called "confirmation bias"

Which, according to Steven Barlett is caused by the fact that "humans tend to search for, favour and recall information in a way that confirms or supports their existing beliefs or values"

In other words, I had no evidence that I could actually jump the final hurdle of hosting a retreat; so I still found it hard to reconcile that this was my new identity and reality

This, despite all the:

• Praying

• Planning

• Meetings

• Coordinating with and for attendees etc

That had got me up to this point

According to Bartlett this is typical as "the further [your] new evidence [or reality] is from [your] current beliefs, the less likely it is to change [your] thinking". This was especially true for me because of my background

You see, it's deeper than the fact that this was my first retreat